Day 4: A New Begining

I couldn't sleep last night. Woke up at 1:30am with an allergy attack and couldn't get back to sleep until 4 this morning. So I got on the computer and just perused around a little bit. This is what came in my email and I thought it was a bit ironic considering what I have named this series of blog.

On this day of your life, Mary, I believe God wants you to know...

....that you have only just begun to discover your magnificence.

This period of your life marks a New Beginning. You can feel it. And you have only just begun to know the treasure and the glory of You. And you have only just begun to make your Real and Lasting Contribution.

So step into this day with zest and zeal! Go now and give your gift. We're all waiting for you. And we need the wonder of Who You Are.

  

Stranger things have happened to me, but this was a little startling. I have an appointment to go view a house today and was really hoping that money was going to be hitting my account today; the money isn't there right now, but I am looking at the house anyway. When things seem to be impossible, that is when we truly have to believe that we will prevail and overcome and achieve our wildest dreams. We have to live it as if it has already happened. I am still disappointed though. I was counting on that money being there today. Miracles can happen and I could still be moving this weekend.

 Last night I was in such a sense of peace; I can't really explain why, but it felt as if all my worries were needless and that all would be taken care of, hence my disappointment this morning. But we just thank the loving spirit for another day and go on.

I feel, at times, that no one is listening to me and that I am not progressing anywhere because the Universal time clock doesn't match my own. In my heart I know that I will get what I truly want and need in my life, but my mind throws a slew of doubts and chaotic confusion my way. Some people say that life is like throwing sand in the wind, that it always come back and stings you in the eye; that is how I feel about my thoughts. I find myself clinging onto one thought that leads to another and another and next thing you know I am flipping crazy mad and want to kill someone saying that life isn't fair and this is all bullshit. That is my mind trying to rationalize what it cannot understand and I know that. It doesn't make it any easier though..haha.

So let's look at this, my family and dogs need and want our own home, I am unemployed and haven't heard anything positive yet, and as of an hour ago the money hasn't showed itself in our account. You would think it would be impossible for this all to come together, for it all to happen. Impossibility is not in my dictionary. Everything is possible and has an equal chance of occurring. It is all about perception. If we want to go on thinking that it will be impossible, it will be. I choose a different path. I choose for a miracle of possibility to happen today!

Until next time......